Do you feel fulfilled?

Joan Boney ... apostle/prophet

Recently a woman asked me if I feel "fulfilled" ... I replied as follows ...

I am a servant of God.  I want to please God.  I want to do things the way God wants them done because I am HIS servant.  I wouldn't want to disappoint God.

And I love the scriptures ...

And I love the words spoken by the Holy spirit which are the word of God.

John says:  I Jn. 2 ... And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments. 4He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him. 5But whoso keepeth his word, in him verily is the love of God perfected: hereby know we that we are in him. 6He that saith he abideth in him ought himself also so to walk, even as he walked.

Doing the word of God is not a burden ... it frees us ...

Serving fornication is a terrible bondage ... You have to hunt a man and do everything to entice him into your bed ... and are trapped by him

Doing the world of God frees us from our flesh.

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Fulfillment ... I never think of fulfillment.

There was a time I thought strongly of achievement.  I earned degrees, even a doctorate, to be able to advance in my field.  Later I owned a business and was on brink of making a great deal of money. 

I was born again in 1975 and after that the only thing I cared about was the Bible.

I still wanted to marry but the Bible was the main thing.  I had no idea at that time I was to be a minister.

Then I was taken into heaven twice and was merged into the Body of Jesus ... God and Holy Spirit witnessed ... (I saw no images ... it was done in the Spirit)

Then I was really on fire for things of God.

I still wanted to marry.  This was not the will of God for me.

Mainly I am a servant of God and not a servant of myself.

I learned not to think of tomorrow.  I learned not to make plans.  I gave up all things that would cause me to achieve in this present life.  Phil. 2 ...Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: 6Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: 7But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant

I did this because I saw how much evil I was growing into by playing bridge and striving to get ahead of others.  Finally it exploded.  I just walked out never to return.  For 6 months I just sat alone at my house.  It was difficult but I could see nothing else to do.  God had mercy on me and gave me the Internet to do.  I still sit here alone ... but I do enjoy writing what I hear from God.

Most people cannot be helped ... few find the way of life...

Mt. 7 ...Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:  14Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it. 

The cost seems too great to them.

But to me going in the word of God is the only safe way to go on this earth.  So even when it appears it will destroy me to obey a word from God, I know it is the only safe way.

Few know this ... most go in the way of destruction ... perhaps to fulfill themselves on this earth.

Instead I make my self of no reputation on this earth.  I learned to take no thought of tomorrow.  I have learned to be content with having food and raiment and I don't want much raiment for I don't go anywhere.  The only people I want to talk with are the other servants of God.  There are few of them.

But all else is really futile ... You talk about fullfilled ... one of the worse things is to be with people who say they are of God but violate the Word of God.  There is no way this can lead to fulfillment.  It only leads to frustation.

But the bottom line is this:  Do you really love God?  If so, you will want to fulfill his word and please Him ... and you will see His will daily as you try to please Him.

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Paul felt this way also.  Romans 8...For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. 19For the earnest expectation of the creature waiteth for the manifestation of the sons of God. 20For the creature was made subject to vanity, not willingly, but by reason of him who hath subjected the same in hope, 21Because the creature itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God. 22For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now.  23And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body. 

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One problem you are having is you are trying to figure everything out with your mind ... that won't work.

You are also trying to see the whole picture to the end of your life on this earth ... that won't work.

What will work is to do today what God shows you to do.

And to talk to God ... asking what HE wants you to do ... this is continual ... learning to talk to God about all your fears and doubts as they come to your mind. .. 

You don't have to figure out everything to the end of your life on earth.

All you have to deal with is what God wants you to do today and doing that which God has shown you to do and to keep doing daily that word which God shows you.

This is how you get to end of your life.

Do today what God shows you .. This is the only way it will work.