Joan Boney ... apostle/prophet
Doctors can scare you to death.
I have an eye disease. Glaucoma... My grandfather went blind with this disease so all my life my mother warned me to have tests.
About 4 years ago, I began treatments (2 eye drops a day).
I went for my 6 month check up this month. The doctor is from India and I have a little difficulty understanding his speech, though he really doesn't say much. (I think him to be a good doctor.)
When I went in a couple of weeks ago, he told me the pressure was good ... then he said, "The pressure is excellent ... " (I was very happy) ... Then he added, "But what worries me is the loss of vision."
I was shocked!
I asked him what we were to do about it. He replied we would just watch it, and said, "Glaumona is tricky." (told me to return in 5 months)
I was terrified and began immediately crying out to God and continued crying out to God. (Pray without ceasing to pray ...I Thess 5:17)
I didn't hear anything that I know of from God. I was reminded of a dream where there was smoke on the other side of the door where I was and it was trying to get into the room but I didn't open the door. I also kept thinking of how I have never been afraid of vision loss.
During the exam, I told the doctor I had been using the computer a lot. (He shrugged it off like it didn't matter.) I showed him the Kindle e-reader and asked if it was okay to use it. He said, "Yes." None of these things were affecting my vision yet I could tell I was having vision loss, especially when I drove car.
It is on my chart that I take Ambiem CR as needed ... I told nurse I take it every night now and I guess she changed it on chart but in case doctor didn't know this I wrote and asked him if the Ambiem was affecting the glaucoma. I asked him to have his nurse call and tell me if I should stop taking it. The doctor called me. He seemed surprised that I was concerned about my vision. He said the Ambiem would not affect the vision at all. He asked me if I was getting new lenses in my glasses and I told him the new lenses should be in this week.
Yesterday I got the lenses and was amazed at how much better I could see. But for several days between the exam and the arrival of the new lenses, I really had to fight destructive, fearful thoughts and hold fast to God.