Joan Boney ... apostle/prophet
Listen to your own words, those words that come out of your mouth ... they come from your heart.
If you find yourself saying something that shocks you, that you would like not to have said, it is because that concept got planted in your heart and often we end up denying the way of God by our own fleshly/emotional words.
We can repent when we do this and keep the proper word of God before us on the matter, uprooting the words of the flesh and replacing them with the word from God and giving the word of God root in us refusing to "confess" the word of our flesh in times of discouragment or hardship.
What does the Bible say about this matter? Sit down with the Bible and begin to list what the Bible says and you will turn sorrow into rejoicing and you will overcome that trial of life through HIS Word.