Joan Boney ... apostle/prophet
Last night I went to bed and there was so much pain in my left foot that I didn't think I would be able to sleep through the pain.
I took 1 sleeping pill and my regular 2 ibuprofen.
I didn't think it would overcome the pain enough to sleep.
I asked God if it would be all right to take an additional 1/2 sleeping pill.
I heard: "It's been all right before." (I've taken extra 1/2 ambium before when I've been under abnormal strain.)
I did take about 1/4 extra Ambium (sleeping pill)
I fell asleep in about 30 min and slept all through the night and awoke about 9:30 am and stayed in bed until about 10:30
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Dealing with Sandra for the past 2 or 3 days has been very hard on me ... She thinks she doesn't need all the repeat messages but God shows me she does need them so I deliver them.
Dealing with Sandra for the past 2 or 3 days has been very hard on me ... She thinks she doesn't need all the repeat messages but God shows me she does need them so I deliver them.
Sandra is very stubborn and dim witted lacking understanding concerning the message until I "brow beat her" and then she backs down finally.
When I sent the email yesterday concerning the keeping that one book and failing to focus on that word she heard from God telling her just because it is in a book doesn't mean it's right ... she really twisted that information I sent and made several accusations against me.
She had come in and I had called her to go over that message with her for I know she often gets everything mixed up because she is not asking God for HIS wisdom over the message but is trying to analyze it by her own flesh.
So I have begun calling her after I send the message ... that way I can see what is going on with her after receiving the message and I can try to straighten out her thinking ... It takes several extra hours to do this and is very tiring but I know her problem and am willing to do this to help her get the actual message.
When I called her, she was just sitting down to eat her food ... I told her I would be home until about 2:15 ... then I needed to leave to pick up my food order which is scheduled for between 2-3 from Walmart. I also had to take shower before going out so I told her I needed to stop the phone call by 2:15
When she called me at about 1:45 everything was pretty hostile ... so it caused me to need to use more time on phone ...
At 2:15, she reminded me that I needed to leave.
I replied, "Your soul is more important to me than my groceries."
I kept trying to work through the message. She was very twisted, and several times tried to accuse me ...
Finally I said: I will reread what I wrote and if God shows me anything wrong, I will change it. I'm always rereading what I write. So I will go for groceries and reread the message and then talk with you.
I told her she needed also to reread what I wrote but before reading she needed to pray for God to give her understanding.
I called her after I had returned from grocery and had judged what I wrote.
I did rewrite a sentence or so because I felt I could write it another way better.
Then I called her and we went over everything again.
When she first read the message, she did not pray for wisdom nor did she ask God to give her understanding.
She tried to read it while she was eating her lunch.
She became very confused and twisted and kept trying to justify herself.
The second time she read it, I think she understood what I was writing.
The way you approach a message from God is important.
Jesus often said, "Take heed how you hear," because they twisted what HE said.
The story doesn't end here ... I had to write several follow up messages which I sent Sandra and you today by email ... and published tomorrow on blog.
That's simply the work to which God appointed me.
It is a hard job for they have already rejected scripture, reading it but failing to do it ... and that is when I often am brought in by God to try to speak a message, not to destroy them but to save them and turn them from their own way.
It is tiring work ... often hard work as they try to justify what they did ... fail to see ... fail to truly repent ... fail to make any real changes to their lives and continue in their own fleshly ways which will destroy them ...
Sandra is especially stubborn ... having denied calling on God for a way of life ever since I've known her. (since 1980)
It seems to be a lack of faith in God.
But for 2 or 3 weeks in January of this year, she had apparently been turning to God in prayer asking for wisdom and immediately she became correct in what she said because she began depending on God ... and we rejoiced in the things she shared.
Then she began returning to trusting in humans ... and I had II Peter 2 brought to mind and I sent that to her as a warning.
II Peter 2:20-22 For if after they have escaped the pollutions of the world through the knowledge of the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, they are again entangled therein, and overcome, the latter end is worse with them than the beginning.
21 For it had been better for them not to have known the way of righteousness, than, after they have known it, to turn from the holy commandment delivered unto them.
22 But it is happened unto them according to the true proverb, The dog is turned to his own vomit again; and the sow that was washed to her wallowing in the mire.
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She thanked me but did not focus on the message.
Then her responses reflected the darkness that was taking over in her way of life.
So I had to be involved to try to turn her from her fleshly way.
It got much more difficult as she resisted and found ways to continue trusting in humans for what she needed.
So I got even more involved.
She misses the way because she fails to keep the word on the issue before her day and night until it becomes firm and works throughout her body and soul and truly leads her in the way to go.
She even used prayer this time to try to justify what she was doing and to do what she wanted to do in keeping that one book and in reading that one book, denying the help from God when HE said to her, The book written does not mean it is really right. (paraphrase)
The book she wanted to read was fun to read and she rejoiced in the cleverness of the writer ...
She got terribly twisted.
Today I had 2 or 3 more messages ... which I wrote to all.
God is my witness when I say this is typical of the way Sandra deals with messages and with scripture ... failing to pray for understanding ... twisting the message.
She is eating and drinking to damnation to herself as she mishandles scripture and words from God ... as it says in I Cor. 11.
But let a man examine himself, and so let him eat of that bread, and drink of that cup.
29 For he that eateth and drinketh unworthily, eateth and drinketh damnation to himself, not discerning the Lord's body.
30 For this cause many are weak and sickly among you, and many sleep (die).
31 For if we would judge ourselves, we should not be judged.
32 But when we are judged, we are chastened of the Lord, that we should not be condemned with the world.
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I believe God is trying to change her way ... She really fights the right way.
But when she finally begins to go the right way, asking God for wisdom and understanding, she is of sound mind.
Otherwise she is crazier and crazier.
I told her it was like letting years of shit pile up in her house.
Eventually the repeated sin of going in what she thought right and trying to figure out everything herself without calling on God would destroy her forever.
She is able to do the right thing ... turning to God ... but often she does not do this.
But she can do it.
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