Joan Boney ... apostle/prophet
Before we are born again, we often have many foolish concepts of God, making God in our image.
Often these images crash leaving a "false" faith demolished.
My mother was one of 7 children. Her mother died in childbirth. After that my mother renounced a God who took away a mother from children who needed her.
But many years later, my mother saw my faith and said to me, "I want a faith like you have."
I believe she had that real faith in God before she died.
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We see a God who had a plan for Jesus, HIS only Son, to die on a cross to save sinners.
After we are born again, and serve God, we come to the position:
Though HE slay me yet will I trust in HIM ... We follow what we believe HE wants us to do though others fight us and try to turn us... and even when what we believe He is showing us to do destroys us, we do it because we believe it is God telling us to do that ... that is faith in God.
Jesus said: Therefore also said the wisdom of God, I will send them prophets and apostles, and some of them they shall slay and persecute: Luke 11:49
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Job 13:15 Though HE slay me, yet will I trust in Him:
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